May 20, 2012 § Leave a comment
Writing this piece brought back fragments of memory; the exact phrase “Pam is a bitch” had been missing from my brain for decades. It’s funny how time changes — and doesn’t change — experience. I can write now about what was one of the worst times of my life and not feel. While it was happening, it felt unsurvivable. (I’m not sure if this not feeling is a good thing or continued evidence of my disconnection. I prefer the former. I want to believe it means I am healed or have moved on or whatever is the ‘healthy’ thing to do.) What has also changed is the perspective; I had never before thought of its impact on Dionne. What hasn’t is its life long impact on me, although I’m happy to report that I have made huge progress.
And, Neena, I’m sorry for all the spammy hits Drash Pit will get from my coarse language. Really sorry.