Really? Creativity Coaching?
September 11, 2010 § 12 Comments
It’s gotten bad. So bad that I feel guilty reading other people’s blogs because I’m not writing here in mine. It’s the same “If I’m not studying when I should be, then I can’t have any fun even though I’m not studying,” that I put myself through whenever I am procrastinating on something. Sigh.
But I hadn’t totally given up. About a month ago, I applied to be a coachee for Eric Maisel’s Creativity Coaching course. So, someone learning to coach gets to coach volunteers. I’m a coach at my work, so I know how powerful it can be.
And the email came yesterday. I can tell how strong my resistance to fixing this is by my response: Damn, I wish I hadn’t been picked, I don’t want to do this.
But I’m not a quitter and I will do it and hope for the best. And thanks in advance, coach, for bearing with me.
Thanks so much for choosing me to coach. Already it’s working – to answer this email made me sort some things out.
A tiny bit of background that’s relevant is that I have spent time in a number of creative arts. I sang and acting in college and after, spent some time making jewelry, have taken painting classes (this I am not good at at all) and three to four years ago started to learn to write. There have been years at a time when I was not doing something artistically creative (I also create at work, but not in the way we are discussing) and during those times I felt lost.
So after beginning to write, about two years ago, I started a blog and began writing poetry which I loved. Here’s the current dilemma: I began writing with a goal of being published and I have been – not much and nothing significant – and have had lots of nice feedback from my blog readers. But I’m not feeling that driving desire to be published or be read by others the past several months and so the energy that has fueled me is gone. That coincides with the realization that I have worked through a lot of angst in my poetry (which is great) but that was fuel too. So the tank is dry.
I want to have an ongoing relationship with writing and want to reconnect with it in a meaningful, long-lasting way, and in a way that doesn’t make me feel guilty or bad if I don’t do it.
I may use some of our coaching in my blog – without your name, of course – to keep it active and to help me process. Please let me know if that’s not something you recommend.
Thanks for your help. I’m looking forward to working with you.