Standy Uppy Now
August 19, 2009 § 25 Comments
Since my post about submissions, and other folks’ acknowledgements that they find it difficult, I’ve been thinking more about mine. I can only draw on my experience, which now is mostly procrastination and laziness.
But before I had my first acceptance, it was insecurity and lack of confidence. Although I liked my own work (mostly or enough), how could I really know if it was good enough? Art is subjective, but when you’re the producer, it’s personal. Very personal. And I’ve been rejection-phobic my whole life.
But that first acceptance showed me that a stranger liked something I wrote and that gave me the confidence to continue. An added benefit is that I handle all kinds of rejection and criticism better now; I’ve learned it’s survivable.
I still need survival strategies, however, and I use affirmations occasionally, although I don’t like the word much; it reminds me too much of Stuart Smiley (I do adore our Senator from Minnesota). My latest has been “If I do it, success will come,” but I’ve found a new one: “Standy uppy now.”
I plan to “standy uppy now” and to be a five year old again every time I face a challenge.